JOY + GRIEF UNDER CAPITALISM — community support circle

Reconnect to humanity, compost your grief, and be in connection with open-hearted humans who want to live their truth, access their creativity, set boundaries, and tap into their numbness under capitalism.

You want to take up space, be who you are, and move towards full aliveness…without losing belonging.

But you and I both know how hard that is…

HERE’S THE TLDR:

The SHIELD is a weekly online community circle with ongoing support for folks who want to alchemize shame without the treacherous self-help grind.

This is for folks who want to fill their life up with goodness, beauty, and ease. 

Offering you a space to come out & be seen, mirrored, received and regarded as sacred in a space that would never shame you for being YOU.

The basics…

  • 1 x monthly 1-hour live sessions hosted on Zoom    

  • 6 lessons over 6 months

  • Each month unlocks a potent teaching, ritual guide, or recorded meditation based on that weeks topic 

  • We meet on Fridays from 9-10am PST

  • Investment: $125/month for a minimum of 12 months. Cancel anytime after your 12 month commitment.

So sure, you want to…

EXPRESS yourself.

PROCESS all that you’re holding onto.

BE HELD BY and RELAX INTO a community of people who actually get what you’re going through.

LIVE and SPEAK your truth.

TAKE BACK YOUR AGENCY. saying “I can feel all my feelings. I am not crazy. Everything I’m feeling is a complete normal reaction to what is happening in the world.”

But people will doubt, criticize and shame you for expressing yourself, for calling out the bullshit, for telling the truth. They project, side eye & talk shit about how you’re being “too much”. You’re told that it is what it is, that your standards are too high. They gaslight you into believing that YOU are the problem rather than the systems at play. Or even worse…they pretend that nothing is happening. They ignore your feelings.

For as long as you can remember, your authenticity has been a problem to solve. And while you can go it alone (and you have for awhile), it’s lonely, it makes you feel crazy…and not expressing yourself fucking hurts.

Not to mention, other people don’t understand what it’s like to work in a high-pressure environment with relentlessly high standards. They don’t understand the constant pressure to succeed, to achieve “more”, to raise the bar. They don’t understand how hard it is to measure yourself against other people, to constantly feel like you’re sacrificing parts of yourself in the name of being successful. They don’t understand the politics, the pressure, and the bullshit. They don’t understand the fear and the need to survive. They oversimplify the problem, telling you to quit. But it’s not that easy.

You’re unable to talk to your team or boss, in fear of losing your job. But you feel lonely, and you’re in desperate need of a support circle.

The SHIELD is a sacred (and confidential) space where we get to practice self-expression and feel ourselves inside the walls of a protective sanctuary.  This is a contrast from the usual corporate space where you often need to mask or hide parts of yourself. Within SHIELD, we play, celebrate, and support one another. This is the perfect blend of being with a community that understands your struggles while also being a safe space within an external container.

The SHIELD is filled with other folks working and living under capitalism—specifically those in the tech industry where the standards and stakes are relentlessly high, where the corporate politics are rampant, and where we lack of a culture of authenticity. We create a culture of unconditional love and support where all feelings are welcome.

If you need a place to be fully you without the risk of being shamed, outcast, criticized or fired, you’re invited.

In The SHIELD, we embody unconditional positive regard, celebration, & shamelessness as our group energy; meaning you don’t have to diminish, mask, hide or pretend to be anything less than your authentic self. You don’t have to care-take, tip-toe, fawn, people please, or be tamed. You don’t need to be anything less than who you are, and you get to bring all of yourself.

Your fullest expression is not too much for me. In fact, I delight in it. It’s what makes you human.

In The SHIELD your radiance will be regarded.

Your wholeness, celebrated.

Your tender heart, protected.

Your complexity, acknowledged.

Your grief and sorrow, tended to.

Your whole self, reflected back.  

Your ambition, amplified. 

Relate? You’re in great company.

People come to this work looking for permission to EXPRESS all their parts (and build a strong community)… and through our work together, we discover:

  • A lifetime of pretending, fixing and trying to fit in was in fact, boring as hell

  • Their old threat responses had them masking & hiding, trying to protect them from rejection or being shamed - but they are ready to bloom!

  • Their past therapist or coach simply didn’t have the range to hold all their muchness

  • A highly-sensitive, intuitive & gifted young one, waiting for the inner adult to bring them back to life

  • A playful, sassy radiance that wants to be celebrated, mirrored in goodness & appreciated

  • Shame of their fullness, aliveness & power

  • A tender heart, not wanting to make anyone jealous, feel inferior or less than

  • Early messaging that their Truth, Essence and True Self was bad, sinful or wrong

  • They are SICK of hearing from “healers” that this work has to be sooooo hard and lonely (Healing can be FUN & you literally cannot do this shit alone).

  • They are healthier, more well, & further along than their shame wants them to believe

  • A history of bullying, lack of belonging & pain resulting in lack of boundaries, diminishment & people-pleasing 

  • Repressed anger that their FULL, AUTHENTIC SELF wasn’t welcomed or celebrated

Sound like you?

Come! Join us!

COME JOIN OUR PROTECTIVE COMMUNITY.

A sacred community alchemizing shame by celebrating our muchness & bringing forth heart's desires into full expression!

We begin October 1.

It will help you…

  1. GO AT IT TOGETHER

  2. BE IN YOUR FULL GRIEF + JOY - Stop hiding parts of yourself, feeling lonely and sad

  3. BE SEEN IN YOUR FULLEST EXPRESSION

This was made for those wanting to…

  • X

  • Y

  • Z

If you’ve been doing “the work” with a therapist, or trauma dumping on your friends and partner, only to find yourself depleted, distraught, resentful, lonely, and full of information but not more free, it’s likely you are needing reprieve, rest, and refreshment offered alongside a community in the SHIELD.

This is not for…

  • Those needing the 1-1 attention & attunement of therapy. If there are traumatic experiences in your past that you are looking to process, please consider seeking out a mental health professional.

  • Those uncomfortable with difference– I welcome trans & queer people, & folks of all religions. If you are uncomfortable holding yourself in difference with dignity and respect for all humans, please do not join. We CELEBRATE difference and diversity around here.

  • Those who do not feel safe to take care of themselves in group spaces. (if you’ve got a lot of “stuff” around groups but feel eager to join, consider coming to calls with your video off, and experimenting with being seen in small, doable bits).

  • Those uncomfortable with spiritual tools for healing. This work is informed by spiritual and somatic practices. If you’re looking for a therapeutic process devoid of spirit, this is not it. 

  • Those unable to take responsibility for their personal experiences, consent, triggers and inner-safety. Your experiences are always valid here, and they are also yours; meaning I will not be able to predict what will make you feel safe, only you can do that. Emotional maturity is a skill and capacity we cherish around here.

Hi, I’m Nicole.

I help people see themselves clearly, remember their power & live freely as themselves.

For the last decade, I have been supporting folks in freeing themselves from their old programming, alchemizing shame, rewriting beliefs about themselves they never chose and peeling back the parts of their identity that hinder them from accessing the vast and beautiful truth of who they are.

And this!! This is when the fun part begins! 

From this place you get to curate a life of JOY.

A life by design, deliberation and devotion. A life centered on your unique needs, your authentic expression and your innate goodness. 

My love, don’t forget that it’s through living more freely as YOU each and every day that the life of wholeness and freedom you desire is even possible. 

What the folks I work with say…